Section 43-46

So thoughout these sections I had a thought of being compled to be humble in my mind.  It is something that they talk about in the Book of Mormon a lot, but just reading though these sections it sat on my mind. 
What would you be like if the savoir was right next to you?
Would you wear what you are wearing? Saying the things you say? Doing the things you are doing? 
It really gets me thinking about all the things in the Book of Mormon, where the people would be blessed and take advantige of it and fall away.  Or the people that they wanted a sign to know that those things are true, or the people that wouldn't know the savior unless he showed them and told them that he was the Christ. 

I know there is time and time again that I have had to be complled to be humble, that there are times that I do doubt the blesssing of my Heavenly Father.  I know that it is the wrong thing to do.  I think thats why I love my relationship Heavenly Father so much, where he really knows me.  He knows what I am going to do and how I am going to act.  He knows how stubborn of a spirit I am, and he always is spiritally slapping me in the face telling me I know I am doing wrong and I need to be doing what is right.  I love my relationship with him.  He has blessed me with so much.  My tallents and my abillities, I love my PB, it has taught me so much of who I am that I didn't even know I was.  There are things about me, tallents I didn't know were mine to be embraced and I have really learned to embrace them. 

When I start to doubt, I lose the spitit.  I lose the faith and am left in the dark.  I hate it, and I feel alone.  I am left alone.  When you doubt the Lord can't give you those blessings.  Then the trials get harder, because you lose the help from your Heavenly Father.  You cannot doubt, I know that I need his help, and that is the hardest thing for me to stop doubting and to always remember. 

I love my Heavenly Father.  I know he loves me.  I don't want to always be compled to be humble any more.  I know that I need to be standing stronger.  I want to be able to tell that Christ is right by me, to be able to tell who he is just by seeing him and know that it is him and not have to have him tell me or have him proove it to me.  I want to know that these things are true without proof.  I never want to lose the faith and knowledge that I have.  I don't want to lose what I have, and take advantige of the blessing that the Lord has given me.  I don't want to be like those people in the scriptures that fall away and then loose it all and get proven they are wrong and so they then go back.  I want to stay on the path I am. 

I know this was a different and kinda short post.  But it really is what I was thinking about this whole time reading.  I know that the church is true.  I know the scriptures are true.  I want to always have the Lord with me.

"Doubt not, Fear not"