Sections 54-59

There was a few things that kind of hit me while reading this reading block. 

The one thing that made the most effect was "be parient in tribulation"  That is something that I know I am not the only one that doesnt do that good of a job in.  We all have our tiralts and tribulations and Heavenly Father knows that we struggle, that doesnt mean that he doesnt love us or doesnt care.  He has his own way of doing things.  He never gives us anything that we cant handle.  He wants us to grow and to progress in life.  We always have to remember that we will get though this.  There is a way out, there is always light in darkness.  The reward in the end is ever lasting life. "For after triblulation come the blessings." 
We are supposed to be obediant.  We have the power to make our own choices, we are agent unto ourselfs. 

I read these sections durring fast and testimony meeting and these words really hit me.  I have my own agency.  I choose for myself what I will and will not do, weather it be right or wrong.  I know I have not been making the best choices in life, but I am greatful for the fact that I have been able to choose for myself how I am to go about them.  "men should be anxiously engaged in a good cause, and do as many things of their own free will, and bring to pass righteouness"  I know I need to work on that.  For the more active I am in doing good the less I have the temptation to do something that is wrong and that I should not be doing. 
The atonement is the other part.  "He who has repented of his sins, the same is forgiven, and I the Lord, Remember them no more."  Heavenly Father no longer remembers.  How amazing is that!! Don't let them sit there and eat you alive, but trust in the atoning grace and the love the Lord has for you. 

I feel as if I am a hypocrite, I have lots to work on.  I am struggling with wanting to want to work on them. 

Remeber who you are.  Stand tall and strong in rightenouss, and don't let the advasary bring you down, dont let the natiral man tell you who you are and that you dont have any worth and your only good for one thing.

I have a lot to work on.

One day I will take my own advice.  I know Heavenly Father really is trying to teach me something here.

I know that this church is true, and I am so greatful for the atonement in my life and the blessings and joy it has brought to me in my life.